I decided to move on, with huge pains inside of me......

 

I guess it's always fair as I got so much by sacrificing many others......if it's hard to know about something, probably the best thing to do is to turn around, or just skip it, simply put.

 

I keep questioning myself about whether I am a strong person or not...probably not at this point. I feel like my whole body is falling apart, every single piece of it, and furthermore, it's ironic to care about people who don't even know me personally...that's just as stupid as throwing a dice without even thinking about its trajectory. After all, that's me, another me.

 

There is no way to do something to feel better, but again it's still fortunate that my workstyle is so crazy that I don't have lots of time to feel desperate. This business is messy enough and we all know what happened to Bear Stearns today...that's crazy!!!!

 

God knows what is gonna happen to the street~~~again I can't do much about it......I can only follow the rules but try to learn as much as I can.

 

Future in my hand, and I am still here for you.

 

Lawrence Jin