这周是正式在trading desk上面的第一周   从来没有感觉过这么大的压力 to be honest...

There are so many things to do...it's so overwhelming and most of time, you know you are not good enough to handle it, but still need to get it done...就像是   地狱无门也要闯的感觉~

Hull's book needs to be revisited...now I am like a stupid kid sitting on a hot spot...知识阿 知识阿 知识就是力量   我需要力量

现在生活完全“规律”了......早上不到六点起床 晚上12点回家   中间经常要totally dedicated到连吃饭时间都没有，连上厕所都要跑着......you know, it's pretty tough, at least for the first couple of months...一点懒都不能偷了...至少从早上到晚上9点，我是没有偷偷爬上baidu的机会了~~~~

But on the other hand, this is such a valuable chance for me to learn all kinds of stuffs on the trading floor. 你没有经历过 永远无法知道这个历程有多艰辛~~~

其实这次多少有点像我在清华时候的那篇帖子，引起好多评论......但是基本上没有人会真的体会到其中不易，again because you don't know how it feels and what you can achieve, unless it once happened to you~

所以我要坚持   把握这种非常非常难得的机会~~~just learn whatever I need to learn, and in the near future, I will become more competitive.

不过呢 也因此感到更孤独吧 给爸爸妈妈打电话 已经不愿意多解释这些金融产品了   和朋友打电话   也没有力气去说明情况了   现在只剩下我自己 能够了解我自己了

其实对于baidu space...我不知道   10年以后 看以前这些文章 到底会是怎么样的感觉   曾经哭过笑过   彷徨失落过    对待每一段旅程，还是心里觉得认认真真的 I still believe it...still have a little faith, as I used to do.

Like what Hannah Montana said, true friends will go to the end of the earth and find the things you need. Just like another day, it will be someone who really understands.

Smiles,
L.J.
5pm Sat. NYC